good lord it seems like everyone is having a shit day.
So last night my parents got into a huge fight because my dad is being a jackass. It was filled with yelling/screaming (my dad either doesn't talk much or yells at whomever he is talking too because he gets incensed by minor issues) and crying/attempts at screaming back (by my mom). It culminated to both of them threatening to leave; dad says he'd be relaxed and happy if "you people" (my mom, sister, and me) left, and mom almost left but I didn't let her. At one point when they came upstairs and my mom was trying to get my dad to sit down so she could talk (he never lets anyone try to explain because he cuts them off saying its bullshit and starts yelling instead) and she was like pushing him to sit down and then i went in because I was afraid he would hit her (my dad has never hit any of us, but I wouldn't put it past him) and I yelled at my dad to sit down and listen to her and he said no I don't want to listen to any of that crap, etc. and then it got kinda quiet and my mom went off crying hysterically and I told my dad that for all the admiration I've had for him he's letting me down and I walked away.
Sigh he knows my mom won't leave because she isn't working anymore so he can get away with whatever he wants. I swear its as if he were still back in his ghetto village in the motherland.
Give it time- he'll come around. Sometimes it's a good thing to have big blow-ups- they're really scary things, but once you get through them, you know that the family is strong and survived. It means nothing is bottled up and creating the desperate atmosphere of resentment and tension- that's what I always tell myself when friends or family fight. ~hugs~
I'm still not speaking to him, and I think I'm going to sacrifice part of my would-be England fund for next summer and buy a TV. [Earlier the day of the fight, I bugged my dad about buying me a TV soon since I'm moving on the 21st, and he pulled this shit out of his ass that he isn't even sure if he wants to get me a TV, and how if he does, its going to be under $400. I got really pissed off because he promised since the beginning of the year that he would get me a TV, and I want like a nice 32" LCD flat panel because I'm going to need a TV for the rest of my life, so why not invest in a good one?] Anyway, so I think over the weekend I'm going to go buy my own TV. He can piss off.
Oh yeah, and my school mailed me a Provost's Honors award right, and I showed my dad and he said (in a condescending is this really a big deal tone) "So what's higher, a Provost or a Dean?" I was like THERE IS NO DEAN ONLY A PROVOST. Good lord can he never be positive and say good job, I'm proud of you! For pete's sake I got killer grades (one B+ and the rest were A or A-) this year – my first year of college, when most students do horribly, and he can't even give me a bit of support!
Ambie, I know it sucks, but you obviously cannot look to him for support. From what you've said, I assume he's not the "Good job slugger!" type of Dad. YOU realize you did well and, in the absence of his support, reward yourself. Take yourself out for ice cream. Sit back and watch a movie. Get your nails done. Anything that makes you feel good. Realize that YOU did this and YOU did well and you don't need him to say "Good Job" for it to count.
Congrats on the Provost's Honors award by the way.
I'm completely broken hearted. I thought the Fall Out Boy concert was this Friday so I was going to stay in Melbourne until then because I've been waiting to see Jacks Mannequin live all fucking year, but turns out it's the Friday after and I just can't afford to stay here thanks to that bitch.
So I had to get my friend to put my ticket on eBay Now I have to pray that I can get a ticket for the Brisbane show, but it won't be the same 'cause I wont' be with my girls and it's odd battling FOB teenies for front row when you're on your own, you know?
My whole year is ruined. I've already sold my Justin Timberlake ticket, that's no biggie, I was just going to go for the sake of going, but I'm clinging to my Muse tickets for dear life. I won't even think of selling them 'til the week before the show 'cause I'm going to see if I can save up and come back to Melb for a trip. I've missed out on Muse that last four fucking times they've come to Australia and I was so fucking happy when I got those tickets I refuse to part with them.
Yeah I got my hair highlighted and I bought myself this awesome Puma bag to use for school, and I'm going to get myself a TV next week!!
I'm totally just like WHATEVER PISS OFF!
God, I hope thinks take a turn for the better for you, its sad to see you so upset over things that aren't in your control. I wish your ex-roomie wasn't so horrible to you.
- 12th grade/year 13
- school (except for Mr Gillitt)
- lack of sleep
- lack of fun
- inability to work out which Universities to apply to
- generally wanting to cry.
SO not in a good mood.
omg, i feel the same way
even when i am happy, i think of all that stuff and i'm worried again. it sucks.
but electra, don't worry, i'm sure you'll do fine. ur so smart!!!
aww, and ambie, i'm sorry about your dad. that's how my dad is too. he's so stubborn, well, sometimes. he can't do much because if anything, we take my mom's side [she's usually right]. so its my mom and the four of us against him. haha, poor guy, doesn't have a chance.
Awww, thanks Vinnie, to be honest reading about everyone else's problems has put mine in perspective and made me feel a little petty. I hope school gets better for you
Ambers – I'm so sorry about your dad. Well done for cheering yourself up and staying more positive about it all though!
And God – say the word and I'll kidnap that bitch of an ex-roomate of yours. She's screwing everything up for you – I'm sorry.
That's really icky of them. Go you for not taking it! If you need another thing to help you say no, try remembering that you'll make your boardie friends proud.
So my audition today went really well. I'm about 95% sure I got a callback. So why is it that I feel like it went awfully?
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